I am a natural introvert. When I was younger, I had selective mutism, which means that I couldn’t speak to certain people or in certain situations. I couldn’t even talk to my own uncle until I was a teenager. I have been working for my whole entire life trying to work through social anxiety issues that I’ve carried from my childhood, but even to this day, I still find that I sometimes have trouble. This is why I love writing so much. I feel that I have so many good thoughts in my head, but I often have trouble expressing them verbally or out loud.
Although this issue still often reappears in my life, I cannot express to you how much I have grown from that scared little girl who use to hide in my mother’s coat. Other than the fact that I am able to get up in front of groups of strangers almost every day and teach, but I now feel quite confident in my ability to stand up for myself in most situations.
The things that I still often struggle with are large parties/events and meeting new people. I can’t really explain the feeling I get when I have an event to go to, or I know that I’ll be meeting someone new. Its a little different than just your average nerves, and its more than just being self-conscious as well. I am in the process of working on my confidence levels, and I can tell that my hard work is paying off by all the good that has entered my life recently. Therefore, I just want to tell everyone who may also be experiencing a similar problem that you are not alone, and it is possible to overcome it.
There is a YouTuber that I follow called, Zoella (Zoe Sugg), and she suffers from panic attacks, which she has publicly shared with her followers. I was watching one of her latest vlogs, and she told us about this charity that she is now representing called Mind. This charity is based in the UK, but they do have a website that discusses a variety of mental health issues such as panic attacks or social anxiety disorders, and they are a great resource for people who are looking for guidance. She also walks around with a red button on her clothing at times, which is a symbol of this charity. Its meant to be a “don’t panic button,” and it represents the fact that there are millions of people in the world suffering from these types of mental health issues (here is the vlog where she explains it a little more in depth).
Anyway, if you feel that you have an issue anxiety, or if you even just feel like you are naturally introverted, I just want you to know that you are not alone, and this problem does not have to define you or rule your life. It is very possible to overcome, but it takes time, and its something that you have to work towards. I am living proof that social anxiety does not have to hold you back from living a full and happy life.
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